6 years and 4 years

My title is for two important events that have happened to Jeremy and I. April 11th was SIX years since we have had our miscarriage.I have never really wrote about our miscarriage, just really talked about it when someone talks about theirs. I just would like to reflect on that pregnancy for a little bit. I found out we were pregnant and we were excited. I wanted our children to be close together. We went to the doctor like any of pregnancy and saw a heart and were giving a due date. After that the good ole throwing up started. I never thought I would stop. I finally called my doctor and told him. Of course some other nurse answered the phone and told me to go to the ER and get fluids, so off I went. I got there and it was PACKED. I called the doctor office back and got my doctors nurse. She said come straight in and walk to the back. When I got there he looked at me and said you go straight to the 3rd floor and get IV fluids. I went to the 3rd floor and waited to get in a room and IV fluids started. They came in and tried to get an IV. They could not get it and I had to go to the second floor and get it. They ended up putting it in my FOOT. I was there for about a week. After that I started feeling better and it was sinking in that we will be a family of four. It was time for our 12 week appointment and off we went. Jeremy came of course. The appointment took a little longer then normal, so Jeremy went back to work. As soon as he left the doctor came in. I called Jeremy quickly and he turned around. Praise the Lord he did. As the doctor was giving me the ultrasound, he was real quite and asked to do a vaginal one. Jeremy and I looked at each other and knew something was wrong. The doctor said he could not see the baby that will do to my scar tissue and wanted to get a better look. Jeremy and I saw the baby just fine. He left the room and I got ready to do the vaganial ultrasound. As he was doing the US he was very quite for a few minutes. Then he gave us the worst news every, the baby had NO heart beat. My world was crushed. After that we went into his office and signed paper work to have the baby removed through a DNC. Let me tell you those things are no joke. I cramped for weeks,bleed for a few weeks. I felt like I just had a baby. Which I did. I which I would have kept a pciture of the US, but my doctor kept it. This day I will never forget. I know I didn't carry full term or got to the name the baby. But to us it was a lost of a child. We have certain things in our heart that helps us know we will see him/her again. 

Olivia had no clue that is was the anniversary date of our miscarriage the other night. She walks up to me with this baby doll and says this was how big our second baby was. It looks bigger in the picture. It really is little no bigger than the palm of your hand. The baby was about the size of a lime! It was developing a lot of things. I want go into much detail about that.  I just needed to reflect on how I feel about losing  a pregnancy. I will never forget that pregnancy or that child. With that being said Catelee celebrating her 4th birthday 2 weeks back. We had it at the jumping place in Hurley. I just want to write a few things about how it took us to get pregnant with her. After our miscarriage the doctor told us to wait six months to try again. We waiting right at the 5th month. As a few months went by and we still were not pregnant. What alife  lesson I learned about Gods timing and his plan. It took us a whole YEAR to get pregnant with her!!! Talk about struggles that went on in my life. I learned a lot about myself and patience. So for this child I prayed and The Lord granted me 1 Samuel 1:27. Is so true. We went to the doctor for the 8 weeks once a week. We were NOT giving a due date just yet. After the big 12 weeks we were able to breath. I can't believe she is FOUR! She brings so much joy to our lives. Here are a few pictures from her party! 

I didn't take any family photos or the children playing. My mom had a triple bypass that Thursday and my mind was not all there. We had her party Friday. We had a great time! Happy birthday, Catelee! 

Happy little week and weekend!

This past week has been crazy and BUSY!!! The Jackson County fair started last weekend. Of course, we were hoping the girls would not find out. Ha! I knew they would know! The fair is way over priced so we only go one night a week. I have class 3 nights so we took them Wednesday. I didn't take many pictures. 

This is the girls on the dragon roller coaster! They loved it. The only picture I took of them on rides. 

     The Boulware family photo at the fair! 

Friday Jeremy and I both were off work. We worked on getting the Fall Festival ready for our church. 

Saturday we got up and headed back to the church to finish up last minute things! I didn't take any pictures put ONE.We had such a good time Saturday! Jeremy got in the dunking booth and I walked around and took care of whatever needed to be taking care of. 

   This is me and the girls on the hay ride! 

After getting home around 7. I had to take TWO test. One test I made an A and  B on the other. I was proud of myself! After getting a few hours of sleep, we got up and headed back to the church for Sunday school and service. We got home and ate a good lunch. I got the girls new outfits so I wanted them to take a few snap shots in them after church. Well they weren't having it! But I got some anyways. 

   Catelee and her wonderful expressions!

The girls saying why do I have to do this!!

        This is the best I can get! 

And again no perfect picture! I do LOVE my pumpkin door hanger! 

  Olivia's friend invited her to the fair again. I was not to sure about it. Because it was another 20$ per child and I have TWO!

Jeremy said take them it is fine. Jeremy stayed behind and did homework. After the saints game ;)! The girls and I headed to the fair. We got the bracelets and off to the rides we went. I was impressed how busy it was but not crowed. We got to ride more rides this time then the Wednesday night. I guess I can say I got my money's worth. 

Olivia went and rode with her friend and I stayed with Catelee. She is BIG enough to ride the rides by herself! I can not believe how big they are. My heart is filled with joy and sadness at the same time. Thank you lord for a wonderfuland blessed   weekend! 

Lord, I need you

There is a song that is called Lord I need you ev'ry hour I need you. It is by a Christian singer Chris Tomlin. Here is a link to the video of the song. 

http://youtu.be/DKjmy5pGyqA. 

 I started back school in August and I drive to long beach 3 nights a week. Every time on my way home this song comes on.I will have to say this is one of my moments I really get close to God. I talk, 

pray, and Praise Him for the great things he has done for me. 

Every time I leave school I doubt myself about going back. So this song makes perfect sense in helping me go through this time. Not just about school just daily struggles of life itself.

Lord I need you every time, I drive to and from school to make it back to my family safely

Lord I need you, to help me understand that being away from my children 3 nights a week is ok. And I am not a bad mom. 

Lord I need you, that I know my husband supports me every step of the way. 

Lord I need you, to know that I am the wife you expect me to be. And that I love my husband in the way that is pleasing to you. 

Lord I need you, to have patiences when my house is not organized the way I like it 

And that it is ok. 

Lord I need you, to make sure I am the mom that I am supposed to be and in the way that pleasing to you. 

Lord I need you, when things seem to much you have a plan just perfect for it.

Lord I need you, in my classroom to teach these children your love. 

Lord I need you, to be a better friend! 

Lord I need you, to work for your will and not the will of others

Lord I need you, in every decision I make is pleasing to you. 

I could go on and about how I need you.  These are just a few things on my heart.  There are several verses that come to my mind when I think of all I need from The Lord. 

Proverbs 17:17, Jeremiah 29:11, proverbs 3:5-6 Colossians 3:23.  

One birthday girl and one birthday boy

Jeremy and Olivia share the same birthday month in August! So we celebrated a lot in the month of August. 

For Olivia's birthday we celebrated at Kids Time N, in Hurley. It was perfect! They sat everything up, and only had birthday party at a time. I can't believe this little girl is 7. I remember taking the pregnancy test, the first ultrasound and her being a baby. I thought she would never grow up. Oh how she has! She is my heart! 

For her birthday day jeremy and i took off and went with the daycare class to dauphin island sea lab. 

      That night we had cupcakes from                            Anderson's and she got Wendy's.  

  

Here are a few pictures from her party. 

We went to Atlanta to celebrate Jeremy's birthday. But of course Olivia was still not done with hers. She has been asking for an American doll for a while. She saved her birthday money plus borrowed a few bucks from mom and dad ;)! And she got one. 

Catelee didn't want anything from there she wanted to go to the Disney store. She got Sophie the first outfit. 

     I love these girls more than life itself! 

 Now, for Jeremy's birthday. We just spent time in Atlanta with his aunt and uncle and went to a braves game and did some shopping. Poor jeremy couldn't find anything. But I left the mall with a few bags ;)!

    The girls found their proms dresses at the mall! Oh, my they can't grow up that fast. 

       Late night ice cream run. 

      Birthday cake from publix! 

 

        Are you surprised this is what he                     

                 Picked for dinner?!? 

           We went to a game just us! 

We had a busy month in August. Now we have one more birthday to start celebrating in August.

       Charley Hope cheramie now! 

She was born August 22nd, 2013. Welcome to the month of August to celebrate birthdays! 

 

August was a great month full of blessings and Gods wonderful promises! Thank you Lord for all the great things you have done for my family and many others. I can't be more thankful for the family I have. 

Thirty-licious plus a few months

            Will you know how blogging goes, I always forget. I just got my birthday pictures from my surprise party. I know a little late, but you know being a mom and working full time you forget things like that.
                                                          Thirty-licious

                                                    Yes, you read right it says THIRTY!!!

                                                                This birthday was the

                                                 BIG

                                                 3-0

                                                 I will say that I was a little worried about,

                                                                     How I would feel?

                                                                     What I look like?

                                                              Where I would be in Life?

When I was younger, I thought of 30 year old as people that had great jobs, college degrees and their head on their shoulders and knew a lot. Well that's not exactly how it is. This age people are still trying to figure out were they want to be and what life purposes is. I have to say I could not be any happier with the Life Jesus has chosen for me.
                                                                        I am a wife
                                                                        I am a mother
                                                                I am still working on my degree
                                                           I am still trying to figure out my career

The day started off with my best friend Kelly and I doing some shopping. She tricked me into saying we were going to eat crab legs at the casino. Which we did not end up doing as you can tell. Jeremy had the bank open up and we got to use the conference room.

I will have to say I believed everything that was going on. I was surprised!!!

                                                      Here are a few pictures from that night.

                                                       Jeremy waiting on me and me walking up

                                                        Just a few pictures from the night.

Love my cake!!! He had some of my favorite things there.

We had a photo booth there. That was so much fun!!!

The theme was Thirty-licious!!! It was a great night. I am so blessed with a wonderful family and a group of friends.

Thank you to all my family and friends that made it and helped with everything. Thanks to my BFF that drove 3 hours to come spend the day with me. She left her children at home and husband because she could not miss it!!

We survived Kindergarten

Well we made it Thur Olivia's first year of "real school". It was not that bad at all. Olivia is going to be like me and not care for school.

Here are a few pictures.

Olivia's last day of school

                                                               Mrs. Perek and Olivia

The family after graduation.

                                                             Mrs. Paige (asst. Teacher)

I  saw something on pinterest, were you take the Dr. Seuss book Oh, the places you will go, and have all her teachers sign it til she graduates high school.  The teachers wrote some sweet things in there. I could have not been more proud. One thing her teacher wrote is she saw Jesus everyday in her!!!!

Olivia,
I can not believe you will be a first grader next year. You have grown so much. I am excited to see what the Lord has planned for you. I know he has great things for you to do.
Love,
Mom

                                     I can do all things thur Christ who strenghtes me.
                                                                  Phil 4:13

Mother's Day!!!

Mother's day started Saturday morning, with a brunch at a lady's house from church. Let me start by giving you a background of why we had the brunch.

There is a lady named Lynne Underwood, who passed away 2 years ago with brain cancer. She went to the same church as Jeremy and I, and LOVES young couples at the church. She was always throwing some kind of fellowship to get the young couples involved. At first, Jeremy and I were the only couple but it has grown now.
There is a lot that I can say about her. One thing I know I can say is she loved her Lord and Savior. Oh, her Faith gives me the chills. How she loved her family was amazing. She got to stay home will her children were little and then went to work as they got older. When I say she was a Christian she meant it.She is just an amazing person.
So, her best friends throw the "young moms" a brunch to honor us and remember Mrs. Lynne. We got there and ate some yummy food. We had a pamphlet  with some question's about mothers of the bible, we talked about our own moms and grandparents, and our own children. Of course, we talked about Mrs. Lynne.
Her daughter was there and of course she is a mom now. For her daughters wedding a few years ago,she needed a necklace to borrow so, she went to her best friend and borrowed one. At the brunch the friend gave Mrs.Lynne's daughter the necklace she borrowed as a gift to her. Yes, we all cried!!!
             
This is Mrs. Lynne at her daughters wedding.This was at the entrance at Mrs. Darlene's house



                          A few of us at the table eating. Some of our faces are funny.
                                   Mrs. Lynne's daughter is sitting to my right.
Some of the things there were Mrs. Lynne's favorite. Yellow roses were her favorite and that was the center pieces of the tables.
                           It was a great time. I can't thank these women for thinking of us.

Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kidness is on her tongue.She looks well to the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her. "Many women have done excellently, but you surpass them all." Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her of the fruit of her hands, and let her works praise her in the gates.
                                                                Proverb 31:25-31

Sunday we went to church that morning and then my parents and his moms. It was a great afternoon of spending family time together. I am still amazed at how God wanted me to be a mom and gave me some amazing children. My biggest struggle is do I love my children enough, do I give them enough attention, show them God's love and be the best what I need to be.

                                                 Olivia had a Mother's day  tea at school.
                                      The purse is flled with questions she answered about me.
                                               The part is she said I weighed 78 pounds!!!

                                                                       Olivia and I

                                                          Me and my favorite girls!

                                                                      Jeremy and I

                                Thank you Lord for everything you have blessed me with.